Secret Message

Random pictures
Captured moments
Ups
Downs
Tears
Smiles
Lust
Passion
First
Time
Joy
Pain
Brands
Titles


Many unexplained emotions
Many [confused!] thoughts
When it all comes together, what it the bigger picture behind these words? What is this secret message?

Simply Undefined

There are days where I feel people don't fully understand me.

Thrown by my walk, talk, look

I'm a little: Rude

Sarcastic

Impatient

Observant

People say I look...

-> angry all the time

-->like I always have an attitude

--->like someone they know

---->I can't be anyone else... I can only be me<----

*I'm honestly MiZUNdeRST00d*

DiifeREnT, DiiveRse, DiistiiNct

I'm simply UNiQUE me

★ "People who don't understand you figure there is more to you,
instead of just accepting the fact that s just how you are" ★

My Funny Valentine

<-- Me && My Valentine -- Feb 09
Someone said today when you name something after somebody then you obviously have that person on your mind. They weren’t talking about me exactly but I felt as though they were. And the funny part is they do have times of being on my mind, even though at times I want to forget. I think if I find a way to forget it will help the feelings go away so when we meet again I won’t feel some type of way. Its just my way to help me think realistically about certain situations... Helps to forget the downtimes && remember the goodtimes.

Indecisive Mind

★ Someone told me they think I have the mindset of a boy, what exactly does that mean? I do not really catch feelings easily or wear my emotions on my sleeve. I simply have my own way of thinking and going about things ★

So I met this guy a little while back. Some things had taken place && in his mind he felt everything was planned out. There was the thought in the end we would end up together, but that didn’t happen. We dealt with our ups & downs like any other type of relationship. But in my mind the downs were starting to overtake the ups. I felt as though I was being pushed away.
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I was taken into a zone away from the drama. In the times of my downs there was someone there to help comfort me && help me deal with the unnecessary drama taking place between me & this guy. I almost began to have some hope behind the comfort but then a reality set in & I was
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But recently, there has been someone who has found a way to intrigue me. I don’t know if it’s the tats or the way he rocks to the beat. I can only go into it with a positive mind.


People have always had their share of thoughts on who I decided I keep around. They usually start out on good terms && I can only hope things stay that way for a little while.

I don't know what to think sometimes. My mind can be all over the place. But even with all the scattered thoughts I know what I am trying to see...

“I'm trying to see what’s there && what’s not”

...i'M NO REAL HURRY, ONLY TiME WiLL TELL

A New Chapter

In September, I had began a new chapter in my life... college. I didn't really know what to expect or what I was gonna get out of it beside an education. Through out the experience of my first year, I have become more open-minded about things && became more willing to meet new people. I have made & lost relationships with people who have made an impact on how I see certain ways of life.

Those relationships lost, I can only hope that I had served my time with you well. Hoping you benefited from the relationship that we HAD. The relationships which are still together, I hope they can last because I feel as though we can benefit from each other... Summer time can change people, I only hope when we all get back in the fall, things will continue to be the same.

There are things that were left in air. Some might say, UNFiNiSHED. I feel as though what ever needed to be shared was said and it is in the hands of fate to see how things play out. Hopefully somethings play out in the favor of those who able to take the critism =] (right Ronnie... wink wink). And the things that people didn't share should have been put out on the table. But there is no turning back time, holding things in work for you... I guess it can work for me.

I went through the school year dealing situations that could have been solved in a different manner. I don't take back anything I did... I just know that I have grow from it && learned how to deal with them differently.

I Hold Dearly

So there are these people in my life that I have grow to care about so much I cant even call them friends anymore.... they are more like family. They all have really affected my life for the better. When I stop & think about it if I didn't them I don't know what I would because they all help complete me in there own weird ways.
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I wish I was able to tell you all how much you mean to me,
I probably would be forever writing about you all.
But you all are iRREPLACABLE to me.
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♥ I LOVE YOU ALL ♥

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Najauna (My Right Hand), Cynae (my Baby Mother), Kierra (Killa, my lil SiS), Andrea (Flan, the Wife), Ashlee (Pookie, the Roomie), Zakiya (KeyKey, My Triplet), Mickey (the Fav), Shaquille (the Bestie), Lianne (my Big Sis)

Unspoken Words

I dont like talking about my feelings. I feel like we are back at square one. Missing the times i got without having to ask. Staying with me just because you seemed like you wanted to be in my company. Simply chillin && talking about whateva. One day someone to me to just leave you alone && I tried to tell myself that i probably shouldnt like you but thats simply lying to myself. Knowing in my mind that this could go no where because something tells me i won't ever be #1 but I will just have to deal with it. There are things I wish I could take back especially because I feel it changed what had. I know this might seem random && you might know already.

But I'm trying to figure out whats there && whats not.