MY HEART

There are ones that i was told to stay away from,

ones that ihave to question

&& ones in which ikeep close to my heart.

i find myself always trying to see the good in people, even if they have done me wrong.

When i finally decide to let people in, i would hope they dont go away.

I share my passt, present && hopefully my future with those near to my heart.

Im not exactly sure what love means but i KNOW when i tell u, i mean it !

i always feel as tho love is over-rated but in reality i really do LOVE you.

*NM, AB, AP, ZO, KJ, MB, CC, SR, KD*

Overwelmed

Things seemed so easy at one point

...EVERYTHiNG was handed to you

...DECISIONS were made for you

...BARELY walked on your own two feet

Suddenly things have taken a turn.

...Picking up MY own pieces
...Started thinking about things for MYSELF
...Began walking my OWN two feet

Learning how to deal with all different situations

...holding everything in.

...putting my feeling to the back.

...feelings as tho my kindness --> can be taken for weakness

...confirmed that i am misunderstood

...knowing some of my actions don't fully reflect my feelings

...some things just have become the most...

Sickness

A phase.

A temptation.
A drug.

An ADDiCTiON.

wanting to say no, but you just can't walk away.
wanting to walk away, but your body yearns for the satisfaction.
knowing the satisfaction is wrong, but you still want a taste.
once you get a taste... you seemed almost hooked.

the withdrawal.
the pain.
the recovery.

you seemed to be hooked,
you know the satisfaction is wrong,
you finally walk away,
saying no.

freedom from the very thing that made you go crazy.

freedom from the very thing that stopped you in your path.

freedom from you...

DiSAPPEARANCE !

When is the correct time to let go?

You watch all these different relationships come together. Some of them seem like they are suppose to be around forever [well a long time], when in reality they are only suppose to be around temporarily. How is a person suppose to know when to let go?

Most of these relationships you build seem so good && you feel as though nothing can go wrong. But they are only around to try & teach you some form of a lesson for the future !

<<<---- keepin them around [[UcDc]]

There have been those moments where you need enjoy.

--->>> live in the moment

--->>> live with no regrets

--->>> live like there is no tomorrow

I know there are people i call my friends && others that i would call my associates. There are moments in time where i mix up those who are only associates & call them friends. Even those minor set backs of giving people the wrong labels, I have learned from all...

"You pick your friends, don't let your friends pick you"

An Understanding

So we sat down to discuss this way of thinking many of the ladiez in my circle tend to have. When some people look at us they say we are assholes, we play too many mind games or people look to find all the flaws instead of simply trying to expect things for the way they are.

Dealing with some of the situations I have gone through are probably the reason why I think the way I do. I appear to have my own way in thinking... down to the way i pick people I call my friends && the other relationships I try to develop.

The moment when decided to really care about a person, I felt as though they took my kindness for weakness. Asking them for something so simply && then they turn out to let me down. I was never a person to look for anything, I'm a very simple being... no need for extra complication. I got back up from the brief moment of tears no one knew I shead && continued on trucking. Until once again I felt comfortable to let my guard down again. But this time I learned from the first, && I think that is the cause of the reason I don't let people get to close.

*don't let anyone get to close

*afraid of heartache

*no one is worth my tears

*may push you away

*complex minded

*different outlook

*don't try & find my flaws

*don't play on my flaws

Simply except me for who I am.

Secret Message

Random pictures
Captured moments
Ups
Downs
Tears
Smiles
Lust
Passion
First
Time
Joy
Pain
Brands
Titles


Many unexplained emotions
Many [confused!] thoughts
When it all comes together, what it the bigger picture behind these words? What is this secret message?

Simply Undefined

There are days where I feel people don't fully understand me.

Thrown by my walk, talk, look

I'm a little: Rude

Sarcastic

Impatient

Observant

People say I look...

-> angry all the time

-->like I always have an attitude

--->like someone they know

---->I can't be anyone else... I can only be me<----

*I'm honestly MiZUNdeRST00d*

DiifeREnT, DiiveRse, DiistiiNct

I'm simply UNiQUE me

★ "People who don't understand you figure there is more to you,
instead of just accepting the fact that s just how you are" ★