Sickness

A phase.

A temptation.
A drug.

An ADDiCTiON.

wanting to say no, but you just can't walk away.
wanting to walk away, but your body yearns for the satisfaction.
knowing the satisfaction is wrong, but you still want a taste.
once you get a taste... you seemed almost hooked.

the withdrawal.
the pain.
the recovery.

you seemed to be hooked,
you know the satisfaction is wrong,
you finally walk away,
saying no.

freedom from the very thing that made you go crazy.

freedom from the very thing that stopped you in your path.

freedom from you...

DiSAPPEARANCE !

When is the correct time to let go?

You watch all these different relationships come together. Some of them seem like they are suppose to be around forever [well a long time], when in reality they are only suppose to be around temporarily. How is a person suppose to know when to let go?

Most of these relationships you build seem so good && you feel as though nothing can go wrong. But they are only around to try & teach you some form of a lesson for the future !

<<<---- keepin them around [[UcDc]]

There have been those moments where you need enjoy.

--->>> live in the moment

--->>> live with no regrets

--->>> live like there is no tomorrow

I know there are people i call my friends && others that i would call my associates. There are moments in time where i mix up those who are only associates & call them friends. Even those minor set backs of giving people the wrong labels, I have learned from all...

"You pick your friends, don't let your friends pick you"

An Understanding

So we sat down to discuss this way of thinking many of the ladiez in my circle tend to have. When some people look at us they say we are assholes, we play too many mind games or people look to find all the flaws instead of simply trying to expect things for the way they are.

Dealing with some of the situations I have gone through are probably the reason why I think the way I do. I appear to have my own way in thinking... down to the way i pick people I call my friends && the other relationships I try to develop.

The moment when decided to really care about a person, I felt as though they took my kindness for weakness. Asking them for something so simply && then they turn out to let me down. I was never a person to look for anything, I'm a very simple being... no need for extra complication. I got back up from the brief moment of tears no one knew I shead && continued on trucking. Until once again I felt comfortable to let my guard down again. But this time I learned from the first, && I think that is the cause of the reason I don't let people get to close.

*don't let anyone get to close

*afraid of heartache

*no one is worth my tears

*may push you away

*complex minded

*different outlook

*don't try & find my flaws

*don't play on my flaws

Simply except me for who I am.